#BlogMonday – One Week In. What the Hell am I Doing Here?
Getting back to blogging regularly has been like getting reacquainted with an old friend. At first you’re really excited because it’s great to see this old friend but all of a sudden you realize that you’ve run out of things to talk about and struggle to keep the conversation going.
There are things I’m just not going to write about here in a place where I can’t filter my audience. This lack of filter in previous incarnations of this blog (and on social media too) have led to problems, mainly because my wife was concerned about what some of the more deeply religious members of her extended family might think about her being married to a guy as opinionated and sometimes angry and often as foul mouthed (I’m not really foul mouthed, I’m just from New York) as me.
So at some point I just quit, very publically, posting about how blogging was hurting my marriage. And then I tried blogging anonymously for a while, using a blogspot blog and a pseudonym. But I like having my name attached to things I write. (I’m not really a narcissist, I’m just a Leo.) So at some point I decided I’d give it another try, this time without calling people douchebags or fucktards or asshats or any of my other favorite colorful epithets, and maybe instead I could talk about TV shows I was enjoying or music that I was into. And of course the timing coincided with the boom of Facebook, and getting people to actually read something on your personal blog instead of taking a quiz on which something or other you are based on a few seemingly unrelated questions can be a bit of a challenge.
So what’s the deal with blogging in the social media age? Is there any audience for people who are writing things that aren’t cheap click bait? This guy started blogging again and you won’t believe what happened next! Are people still even reading blogs? And is there any kind of money at all to be made from it? (I’m not really such a blog whore, I’m just always broke.)
Also, what the hell should I write about here? So far it’s been nothing but a few paragraphs about the writing process itself and for one, reading about the artistic process of beloved masters of the craft only has so much mass appeal, let alone the ramblings of some guy who made a trashy movie over a decade ago and hasn’t engaged in much notable creativity since. And for two, there is no two. I need to step it up. I don’t want to share my work in progress here (though perhaps some password protected snippets for the purpose of critique). And I don’t want to spend too much time thinking about what to write here when I’ve got a damn novel I’d like to finish. But I still think that blogging might be a good exercise. I’ll figure something out. (I’m not really this confused, I might have an idea or two up my sleeve.)